Let's go for a date babe!
Well..I would consider if i know who you're.(:
Hello, i have known you for 12years, and i will know you forever, guess who am i(: its obvious. I sent the previous about the date one too:D
Hmm, it's pretty hard to guess. Because, i've loads of friends whom i know for 12 years & more. So..which one are you?(:
What's the most delicious meal you've ever had?
I don't know? Hmm, maybe foods from wedding dinner?
CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG,THANKS.
I realized that I've been running away from all the problems I'm having now.
Firstly, The thing about my father knew about me being a bisexual.
Instead of telling him i will carry on and persevere, I chose to hide away and not telling him anything.
Secondly, I seriously had no clue what that girl wants by doing all those stuff after we talk it out peacefully. She just leave me hanging there,wth.
Don't feel like blogging anymore,so..Ending of with the tags.
Justina~~Can you be a superhero??
Honestly,I can't be. But if i can be one, then i would like to have the power of letting everyone know it's 2010 now and not 1960's!
Baby anything! Hahahaha, you asked me to ask anything :D
Obviously,this is my boyfriend.HAHA.
I've been thinking lately,what's the cause of this problems.
You filed a complaint against me.Why is that so?
Because i rant about my personal opinion about you.Why is that so?
Because you made me pissed by all the stuff you did(example; Hacking my audition account which you said you did nothing at all(yah,obiously you would say that now.),Cursing behind my back when you're with Lansiweihan.Why did you do that?
Because Lansiweihan broke up with you & you think it's because of me and you hated me.
So,afterall..It takes two hands to clap.
Well..can i be charge for saying all these in my blog?If i am,then this world is unfair.
Adios people!Blog later on.
Alright,it's 11.24pm now.And i'm bored.Baby's watching "Bring it on" again so i'm here blogging.
Okay,yesterday i was surfing the net and i saw something interesting.Many kinds of cakes and i mean,MANY kinds of interesting cakes.I always wanted a cake like..
Like,vintage cake?
Or maybe.. Mario cake?
Or maybe my favourite, Camera phone!
Isn't it nice?Well anyway,you could easily surf it on google andfind varieties of it.
Alright,Gonna kiss my hubby & acompany him.
Oh anyway!Ask me questions by formspring.me , It's right there on the column.Adios!
I'm gonna kill myself. I seriously will.
So..my father knew about me being a bisexual. And he's asking me to leave lansiweihan sooner or later. He told me that's not normal, that's not good, that's abnormal & that's not healthy.
So here's what i wanna say:
BEING BISEXUAL DOESN'T MEAN THAT WE'RE NOT HUMANS.
You are my parents,i am your daughter.You said i hurt your heart because i'm a bisexual,so do you know you're breaking my heart by telling not to be with someone i love?Do you also know you're breaking my heart by not supporting me?And please,this is 2010 it's not 1980 or whatev. all i ever wanted was just to be with her,is it wrong?I can give up everything just to be with her,i can do anything just to be with her.If you're asking me to leave her and you'll give me anything,i'm sorry to say you can't give me what i wanted.And seriously,i'm afraid of going to relative house because i can't stand the fucking stares my aunts gave me.they'll start debating with me and even say "WHY ARE YOU WITH A GIRL?". And i know all i'll do is just cry and runaway because,since young,i don't talk back to them.but how i wanted to tell them, "this is my life,i know what i'm doing.If you think me being with a girl have no future or whatever,then you're wrong because..I'M GONNA BE MORE FUCKING SUCCESSFUL THAN ANYONE OF YOU.AND TRUST ME I CAN.If you guys really push me to the edge,i'll die.All i ever needed was your support,please.
Singapore is hot,singapore is hot,singapore is hot.
Postpone my tuition to saturday because i wasn't in the effin mood to study thanks to the humid weather.And i didn't went to school (again) although it's the last day.Be it having holiday or not, i'm still having tuitions & remedials.So..what is holiday?I mean,with schools having remedials on holidays..who the fuck would like it?And seriously,i think i forgotten what's a holiday.I think many students might don't even know it's holiday!
Okay,so everyone who's visiting my blog would definitely feel happy/somewhat entertained because,i blog /surf because i'm bored.And that is why i found interesting stuff to share when i'm bored.So who ever come here for entertainment or topics to share or even bitch talks,are all bored.Like me.So enough crapping and here's something!
NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNG/WEAK HEART OR PEOPLE WHO CAN'T STAND GORE.
Description:Two guys in arab jumping down a cliff.First succeed,but the second didn't.His face apparently split into two,but he's alive.
Next!( Don't worry,this is not gore.)
This is an interesting shows showing how police rescue people from extrem dangers.It's just re-enactment but it's effin real.
Many will be listed and you can kill your boredom!
Alright,that's all for today.
Happy entertaining!
Baby,it's going to half a year.Iloveyou.Nothing is going to tear us apart,no one.
Do you think you're a hypocrite?
I'm a hyprocrite when i'm with hypocrite.but i'm definitely not a hypocrite towards my friends & families
Misfortune,only for this time.
Went to school reluctantly.Had english oral and i was the last one to go.Not because i'm a bad kid homie,it's because my register number's the last.damnnnn.
And to my surprise..
When i switched on ma phone,i saw severals message.Baby was like "call me now!","why jurong HQ officer called you!?","What happened?". To be truth,i'm dumbfounded too.So i called the officer and ask what is happening.And he said,"you got a complaint by a girl saying that you bullied her in facebook." I was like "Who the hell did i bully in facebook!?". so i called again and asked. And i found out who he's talking about was junnie lim.
I wanted to laugh but i know i gotta take it seriously.But i'm seriously not scared too because i'm not in the effin wrong!All i merely did was just telling her not to pester my boyfriend.what's wrong with it?So..yep.Hope this thing is settled asap,aint not gonna waste my time on her anymore.
Okay!so..everyone's got their own life.And this is mine.
Everyone born out to be pure,innocent,cute little babies.
So gradually..we became toddlers and started reading,walking,learning to poop & everything!
Time flies & we became different,young teenage me gone haywire.
But now,as a going-to-be-young-adult me,changed!
So yeah,i'm always hot.I know i'm hot.Oh please people,don't..don't make me blush.
(By: Famous lisaly)
Went over to baby's school and fetched her.Saw Limxuejun, heard that she & her guy broke up.Pity the guy though,but don't be sad lady(although i loathe you.).Well anyway..
My lovelove is having a little problem recently and it's because of blog & friends.
whaddufuck?
Debating about something which is not my lovelove's fault,get a life.Thanks.
Alright,gonna hit the sack now.ENGLISH ORAL TOMORROW,oh fuck.
Oh and here's something interesting!
For those who drink coffee often,would you like to have a beautiful coffee arts for your morning coffee or singapore's traditional coffee?
Like..
Or something like..
(sorry dude,don't mean to show your face.)
Singapore may have some of those pretty coffee art,but..y'know.Our singapore's art will be at it's bottom.
LOL.
Alright,sending my boyfriend a "goodnight message" and really,hit the sack.
Finally this blog shredded the old skin and finally,hot pink blog skin!
Yesterday,Changi Airport with Weihan Zachery, Eileen and Jun Yong.
We're suppose to meet each other @ 2pm. But me and Zachery was late, as in really late. Reach around 5pm and these two ass have already finished studying. And obviously I've already fallen out of the study mood and started crapping.
We took the lift down and started to get frustrated because.. Singapore's lift,fucking slow. And you know what? When we reached level 2, a basement(i think), we saw a group of human dancing hiphop. It was funny enough but a fat kid just jumped in front of the lift as a part of the "Dance step". Stupid or whaaaat?
So i started to get excited about the "sky train".. okay, i never been on a sky train before. Even if i did, I've forgotten. So i started to be like "BABY, I WANNA HAVE A RIDE IN THAT SKY TRAIN!", I really thought it was really sky,train. So when we went in..
This two idiots started to make a scene by holding on to the railing so hard when the train started moving. But but but! The best part is..
THE TRAIN WAS NOT FAST ; IT'S NOT HIGH AT ALL!
So why the hell call it SKY-TRAIN?!!Really pissed.
If you think you're intelligent enough, tell me why is it called a SKY train.
Today,nothing much. waiting for 2pm,fetching my lovely boyfriend.<3
Everytime when i tell myself i will buck up,i didn't.
So maybe i should say..
DO IT OR FUCK IT.
That'll motivates me,most probably.
In case you're wondering what had happened between me and junnie lim xue jun stuff..
we promised not to insult each other anymore.I'm gonna bury all these things in my ass and shit it out.As for her friend's boyfriend,jasper..well,he's rude.But it's okay.I'll be the gentleman instead.After junnie apologised to me 3 times,i decided to let this matter rest.so yeah,thank you for your co-operation and bye.(if you're reading it,i know you will (: )
Tuition starting on wednesday,doomsday):
My greatest nightmare begins,Awesome-ly tragic.
First of all..
I miss my grandfather,so much.Yesterday was the cremation of my grandfather's.The pain is so hard to bear.I'm asking myself every now and then,is he gonna sweat when he's inside the coffin?can he hear us?Is he gonna hurt when they burn him?Is he still breathing?because i thought i saw him breathing.I can't believe my grandfather went up to heaven so soon,maybe it's god's calling.Iloveyou grandpa,although i don't show it out.I don't know how to but i just love you so much like a millions of red M&N's.
Secondly,
The on and off dispute between baby,junnie lim xue jun and me is gonna be settle on friday.I don't like to bear grudges with a person whom i don't even know.It's utterly absurd.
Thirdly,
To the jazliyana in my tagboard.Why don't you just get the fuck out of my life and try to grow up?I don't care if you think i know how to fight or not,it's none of your business anway.So don't be such an idiot and trying to catch my attention.Or maybe,you succeeded in getting my attention.So what else do you want?If you're not happy with me,come straight to me.Why are you acting like a retard who only know how to face me using a computer?you know..i really hate to call you stupid,stupid.
Lastly,
This is for my loveliest baby on earth.
It's been long since you gave me BBT,even if you did it wasn't long enough.I almost lost the touch of love.Remember your promise honey,my BBT.(:
And i love you always,i've been really fucked up recently and truthfully..Because of the indirect objections and my grandad's funeral,i felt like there's no love between us anymore.but today,i just realise i need you so much and i don't wanna leave you.I don't care if anyone object our relationship or whatever,let's just get married in las vegas.
He was breathing heavily..everyone teared.Slowly,he stopped breathing.He told us something about the 8th of may,he meant this.He went up to heaven on 11.57..
Dear grandpa,Do you feel much relieve after you started your journey to heaven?
I feel happy because you're free from pain,
but i can't bear to see you go.
Grandma can't bear to see you go either.
"You're really leaving?" that's what grandma said to you,
i know you're listening,and i know you're not leaving us.
Because you're always in our heart.
I'm glad to trim your eyebrow for the last time,
Like how i use to when i was a little girl.
Don't lose your way grandpa,
please don't.
iloveyou so much but i can't see you anymore,
i'll miss you alot,do you know that?
i wanna tell you,
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou.
Be happy on your way grandpa,
iloveyou.
Your grandaughter,
Justina Tan.
"miko" have ask a pretty good question,why are there people seems to hate me alot?
Let me tell you, first of all..
They're just jealous of me,if not they wouldn't be insulting me for nothing. Secondly, they judge me by my cover.You can ask every single one whom know me what kinda person am i. I can be mean and i can be friendly, i'm pretty straightforward at times and i dislike 'beat-around-the-bush' peoples.
So spammers, continue spamming. It doesn't hurt me a single bit,so try harder next time. Or maybe you could try your luck somewhere else. Anyway, i'm a little busy recently so can i ignore you guys next time? Thank you very nice.
When it's time to go,nothing can stop it.
NO TIME TO ENTERTAIN JUVENILE.
STILL NOT HAPPY?
CALL ME, 818426** .
find out yourself loser.
God he looked so frail..so fragile. His body used to be tanned and strong.Now, he lay in bed motionlessly.So thin and pale. He looked at me with those eyes that were trying to say " Hi my beloved grandaughter." I held my tears back, it's too embarrassing to cry infront of my parents. I promised my boyfriend i won't cry. All grandaddy wanted to do was to seat up and eat his porridge..but all he can do was just moaning out "wait wait" or groan in pain..his bones is hurting, his heart is failing & even his memories are fading..He kept jerking & jerking..something was wrong.My aunt cried & cried, I wanted to but i can't.I helped him massage to relieve his pain,He held my hand and squeeze. I don't know if he's in pain or he's trying to tell me,"This may be the last time you're holding my hand.Be a goodgirl and make your parents proud."Ambulance came,He close his eyes, open..& close, open & close.He's tired.A nurse point at my father,and ask, "uncle!do you recognise him?" My grandaddy said, "that's my brother."I can't take it anymore..He can't remember his son,does he remember me?Is he going to leave the world without remembering who are we?I prayed & i prayed..But nothing happened.God didn't want to answer my prayers.Grandaddy,stay strong please.I still wanna be in a occasion where you'll be seating there talking to adults,without you,it's going to be very different..
Let's go for a date babe!
Well..I would consider if i know who you're.(:
Hello, i have known you for 12years, and i will know you forever, guess who am i(: its obvious. I sent the previous about the date one too:D
Hmm, it's pretty hard to guess. Because, i've loads of friends whom i know for 12 years & more. So..which one are you?(:
What's the most delicious meal you've ever had?
I don't know? Hmm, maybe foods from wedding dinner?
CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG,THANKS.
I realized that I've been running away from all the problems I'm having now.
Firstly, The thing about my father knew about me being a bisexual.
Instead of telling him i will carry on and persevere, I chose to hide away and not telling him anything.
Secondly, I seriously had no clue what that girl wants by doing all those stuff after we talk it out peacefully. She just leave me hanging there,wth.
Don't feel like blogging anymore,so..Ending of with the tags.
Justina~~Can you be a superhero??
Honestly,I can't be. But if i can be one, then i would like to have the power of letting everyone know it's 2010 now and not 1960's!
Baby anything! Hahahaha, you asked me to ask anything :D
Obviously,this is my boyfriend.HAHA.
I've been thinking lately,what's the cause of this problems.
You filed a complaint against me.Why is that so?
Because i rant about my personal opinion about you.Why is that so?
Because you made me pissed by all the stuff you did(example; Hacking my audition account which you said you did nothing at all(yah,obiously you would say that now.),Cursing behind my back when you're with Lansiweihan.Why did you do that?
Because Lansiweihan broke up with you & you think it's because of me and you hated me.
So,afterall..It takes two hands to clap.
Well..can i be charge for saying all these in my blog?If i am,then this world is unfair.
Adios people!Blog later on.
Alright,it's 11.24pm now.And i'm bored.Baby's watching "Bring it on" again so i'm here blogging.
Okay,yesterday i was surfing the net and i saw something interesting.Many kinds of cakes and i mean,MANY kinds of interesting cakes.I always wanted a cake like..
Like,vintage cake?
Or maybe.. Mario cake?
Or maybe my favourite, Camera phone!
Isn't it nice?Well anyway,you could easily surf it on google andfind varieties of it.
Alright,Gonna kiss my hubby & acompany him.
Oh anyway!Ask me questions by formspring.me , It's right there on the column.Adios!
I'm gonna kill myself. I seriously will.
So..my father knew about me being a bisexual. And he's asking me to leave lansiweihan sooner or later. He told me that's not normal, that's not good, that's abnormal & that's not healthy.
So here's what i wanna say:
BEING BISEXUAL DOESN'T MEAN THAT WE'RE NOT HUMANS.
You are my parents,i am your daughter.You said i hurt your heart because i'm a bisexual,so do you know you're breaking my heart by telling not to be with someone i love?Do you also know you're breaking my heart by not supporting me?And please,this is 2010 it's not 1980 or whatev. all i ever wanted was just to be with her,is it wrong?I can give up everything just to be with her,i can do anything just to be with her.If you're asking me to leave her and you'll give me anything,i'm sorry to say you can't give me what i wanted.And seriously,i'm afraid of going to relative house because i can't stand the fucking stares my aunts gave me.they'll start debating with me and even say "WHY ARE YOU WITH A GIRL?". And i know all i'll do is just cry and runaway because,since young,i don't talk back to them.but how i wanted to tell them, "this is my life,i know what i'm doing.If you think me being with a girl have no future or whatever,then you're wrong because..I'M GONNA BE MORE FUCKING SUCCESSFUL THAN ANYONE OF YOU.AND TRUST ME I CAN.If you guys really push me to the edge,i'll die.All i ever needed was your support,please.
Singapore is hot,singapore is hot,singapore is hot.
Postpone my tuition to saturday because i wasn't in the effin mood to study thanks to the humid weather.And i didn't went to school (again) although it's the last day.Be it having holiday or not, i'm still having tuitions & remedials.So..what is holiday?I mean,with schools having remedials on holidays..who the fuck would like it?And seriously,i think i forgotten what's a holiday.I think many students might don't even know it's holiday!
Okay,so everyone who's visiting my blog would definitely feel happy/somewhat entertained because,i blog /surf because i'm bored.And that is why i found interesting stuff to share when i'm bored.So who ever come here for entertainment or topics to share or even bitch talks,are all bored.Like me.So enough crapping and here's something!
NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNG/WEAK HEART OR PEOPLE WHO CAN'T STAND GORE.
Description:Two guys in arab jumping down a cliff.First succeed,but the second didn't.His face apparently split into two,but he's alive.
Next!( Don't worry,this is not gore.)
This is an interesting shows showing how police rescue people from extrem dangers.It's just re-enactment but it's effin real.
Many will be listed and you can kill your boredom!
Alright,that's all for today.
Happy entertaining!
Baby,it's going to half a year.Iloveyou.Nothing is going to tear us apart,no one.
Do you think you're a hypocrite?
I'm a hyprocrite when i'm with hypocrite.but i'm definitely not a hypocrite towards my friends & families
Misfortune,only for this time.
Went to school reluctantly.Had english oral and i was the last one to go.Not because i'm a bad kid homie,it's because my register number's the last.damnnnn.
And to my surprise..
When i switched on ma phone,i saw severals message.Baby was like "call me now!","why jurong HQ officer called you!?","What happened?". To be truth,i'm dumbfounded too.So i called the officer and ask what is happening.And he said,"you got a complaint by a girl saying that you bullied her in facebook." I was like "Who the hell did i bully in facebook!?". so i called again and asked. And i found out who he's talking about was junnie lim.
I wanted to laugh but i know i gotta take it seriously.But i'm seriously not scared too because i'm not in the effin wrong!All i merely did was just telling her not to pester my boyfriend.what's wrong with it?So..yep.Hope this thing is settled asap,aint not gonna waste my time on her anymore.
Okay!so..everyone's got their own life.And this is mine.
Everyone born out to be pure,innocent,cute little babies.
So gradually..we became toddlers and started reading,walking,learning to poop & everything! Time flies & we became different,young teenage me gone haywire.
But now,as a going-to-be-young-adult me,changed!
So yeah,i'm always hot.I know i'm hot.Oh please people,don't..don't make me blush.
(By: Famous lisaly)
Went over to baby's school and fetched her.Saw Limxuejun, heard that she & her guy broke up.Pity the guy though,but don't be sad lady(although i loathe you.).Well anyway..
My lovelove is having a little problem recently and it's because of blog & friends.
whaddufuck?
Debating about something which is not my lovelove's fault,get a life.Thanks.
Alright,gonna hit the sack now.ENGLISH ORAL TOMORROW,oh fuck.
Oh and here's something interesting!
For those who drink coffee often,would you like to have a beautiful coffee arts for your morning coffee or singapore's traditional coffee?
Like..
Or something like..
(sorry dude,don't mean to show your face.)
Singapore may have some of those pretty coffee art,but..y'know.Our singapore's art will be at it's bottom.
LOL.
Alright,sending my boyfriend a "goodnight message" and really,hit the sack.
Finally this blog shredded the old skin and finally,hot pink blog skin!
Yesterday,Changi Airport with Weihan Zachery, Eileen and Jun Yong.
We're suppose to meet each other @ 2pm. But me and Zachery was late, as in really late. Reach around 5pm and these two ass have already finished studying. And obviously I've already fallen out of the study mood and started crapping.
We took the lift down and started to get frustrated because.. Singapore's lift,fucking slow. And you know what? When we reached level 2, a basement(i think), we saw a group of human dancing hiphop. It was funny enough but a fat kid just jumped in front of the lift as a part of the "Dance step". Stupid or whaaaat?
So i started to get excited about the "sky train".. okay, i never been on a sky train before. Even if i did, I've forgotten. So i started to be like "BABY, I WANNA HAVE A RIDE IN THAT SKY TRAIN!", I really thought it was really sky,train. So when we went in..
This two idiots started to make a scene by holding on to the railing so hard when the train started moving. But but but! The best part is..
THE TRAIN WAS NOT FAST ; IT'S NOT HIGH AT ALL!
So why the hell call it SKY-TRAIN?!!Really pissed.
If you think you're intelligent enough, tell me why is it called a SKY train.
Today,nothing much. waiting for 2pm,fetching my lovely boyfriend.<3
Everytime when i tell myself i will buck up,i didn't.
So maybe i should say..
DO IT OR FUCK IT.
That'll motivates me,most probably.
In case you're wondering what had happened between me and junnie lim xue jun stuff..
we promised not to insult each other anymore.I'm gonna bury all these things in my ass and shit it out.As for her friend's boyfriend,jasper..well,he's rude.But it's okay.I'll be the gentleman instead.After junnie apologised to me 3 times,i decided to let this matter rest.so yeah,thank you for your co-operation and bye.(if you're reading it,i know you will (: )
Tuition starting on wednesday,doomsday):
My greatest nightmare begins,Awesome-ly tragic.
First of all..
I miss my grandfather,so much.Yesterday was the cremation of my grandfather's.The pain is so hard to bear.I'm asking myself every now and then,is he gonna sweat when he's inside the coffin?can he hear us?Is he gonna hurt when they burn him?Is he still breathing?because i thought i saw him breathing.I can't believe my grandfather went up to heaven so soon,maybe it's god's calling.Iloveyou grandpa,although i don't show it out.I don't know how to but i just love you so much like a millions of red M&N's.
Secondly,
The on and off dispute between baby,junnie lim xue jun and me is gonna be settle on friday.I don't like to bear grudges with a person whom i don't even know.It's utterly absurd.
Thirdly,
To the jazliyana in my tagboard.Why don't you just get the fuck out of my life and try to grow up?I don't care if you think i know how to fight or not,it's none of your business anway.So don't be such an idiot and trying to catch my attention.Or maybe,you succeeded in getting my attention.So what else do you want?If you're not happy with me,come straight to me.Why are you acting like a retard who only know how to face me using a computer?you know..i really hate to call you stupid,stupid.
Lastly,
This is for my loveliest baby on earth.
It's been long since you gave me BBT,even if you did it wasn't long enough.I almost lost the touch of love.Remember your promise honey,my BBT.(:
And i love you always,i've been really fucked up recently and truthfully..Because of the indirect objections and my grandad's funeral,i felt like there's no love between us anymore.but today,i just realise i need you so much and i don't wanna leave you.I don't care if anyone object our relationship or whatever,let's just get married in las vegas.
He was breathing heavily..everyone teared.Slowly,he stopped breathing.He told us something about the 8th of may,he meant this.He went up to heaven on 11.57..
Dear grandpa,Do you feel much relieve after you started your journey to heaven?
I feel happy because you're free from pain,
but i can't bear to see you go.
Grandma can't bear to see you go either.
"You're really leaving?" that's what grandma said to you,
i know you're listening,and i know you're not leaving us.
Because you're always in our heart.
I'm glad to trim your eyebrow for the last time,
Like how i use to when i was a little girl.
Don't lose your way grandpa,
please don't.
iloveyou so much but i can't see you anymore,
i'll miss you alot,do you know that?
i wanna tell you,
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou.
Be happy on your way grandpa,
iloveyou.
Your grandaughter,
Justina Tan.
"miko" have ask a pretty good question,why are there people seems to hate me alot?
Let me tell you, first of all..
They're just jealous of me,if not they wouldn't be insulting me for nothing. Secondly, they judge me by my cover.You can ask every single one whom know me what kinda person am i. I can be mean and i can be friendly, i'm pretty straightforward at times and i dislike 'beat-around-the-bush' peoples.
So spammers, continue spamming. It doesn't hurt me a single bit,so try harder next time. Or maybe you could try your luck somewhere else. Anyway, i'm a little busy recently so can i ignore you guys next time? Thank you very nice.
When it's time to go,nothing can stop it.
NO TIME TO ENTERTAIN JUVENILE.
STILL NOT HAPPY?
CALL ME, 818426** .
find out yourself loser.
God he looked so frail..so fragile. His body used to be tanned and strong.Now, he lay in bed motionlessly.So thin and pale. He looked at me with those eyes that were trying to say " Hi my beloved grandaughter." I held my tears back, it's too embarrassing to cry infront of my parents. I promised my boyfriend i won't cry. All grandaddy wanted to do was to seat up and eat his porridge..but all he can do was just moaning out "wait wait" or groan in pain..his bones is hurting, his heart is failing & even his memories are fading..He kept jerking & jerking..something was wrong.My aunt cried & cried, I wanted to but i can't.I helped him massage to relieve his pain,He held my hand and squeeze. I don't know if he's in pain or he's trying to tell me,"This may be the last time you're holding my hand.Be a goodgirl and make your parents proud."Ambulance came,He close his eyes, open..& close, open & close.He's tired.A nurse point at my father,and ask, "uncle!do you recognise him?" My grandaddy said, "that's my brother."I can't take it anymore..He can't remember his son,does he remember me?Is he going to leave the world without remembering who are we?I prayed & i prayed..But nothing happened.God didn't want to answer my prayers.Grandaddy,stay strong please.I still wanna be in a occasion where you'll be seating there talking to adults,without you,it's going to be very different..
