I have loads to rant about.And now finally,I got the time to do it.
Yesterday I brokedown,it's not a major one though.Reason?My dad and mom tagged team to shout at me because they assume i didn't inform them I'm staying over which i did.So..he's being freaking unreasonable and disrespectful towards me and my friends.
First of all, when my phone died on me or engaged it'll be diverted to baby's phone.And my dad said it's all craps because he don't believe it.Well,what can i say for that?He could ask anybody who's studying what is diverted calls.Secondly,Joy's house don't have a house phone!And he claimed that i lied to him!I mean come'on!If i were to lie,would i be stupid enough to actually say that she doesn't have a house phone!?Believe it or not,it's up to you seriously.And so..my dad gone bonkers and said he would smash me tomorrow at my workplace.Truthfully,I would never call back if joce cuzzie & baby didn't persuade me to.
The most hurting words he said was this..
Me: Didn't you realise that whenever you guys call,it would only be scolding and yelling and naggings?
Father:*quiet*
Me:Think about it please.
Father:Why must i think?
Me: YOU ALWAYS ASK US TO THINK ABOUT WHAT WE'VE DONE,SO NOW I MERELY ASKING YOU TO THINK ABOUT THIS MATTER AND YOU TOLD ME WHY MUST YOU THINK!?
I mean,which parents would sacarstic with your own children?Yeh,obviously.Mine.
Now, I just wanna load all this shit into this blog so that it'll lessen my stress.
You always tell us to reflect on what we've done,what we've done wrong and everything..And now,I'm merely asking you to think about how many times have you called me just to scream at me.I am a human too dad,I am your daughter but I aint your scolding bag.You always shout at the top of your lungs when you're in a foul mood when you reached home.You can even shout when you saw towels laying unattended.We may have forgotten to keep it,but you don't have to yell at us.Do you think we wanna put it there on purpose to let you scream at us?NO.We're just being forgetful.And please stop saying that we're lousy because we can't remember.EVERYONE MAKE MISTAKES,so why aint there a second chance?Another thing,you told us to respect people.frankly,sooner or later i can't even respect my own relative because none of you are being fair.You guys always think that we're all in the wrong,you guys are right because you guys have much more experience.YEH,EXPERIENCE?I've been molested before,I've been flashed before,I've been drunk before,I've smoke before,I've been cheated before,I've been through lots more.so isn't that experience?HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN MOLESTED BEFORE?HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN TREATED LIKE HOW YOU GUYS TREATED US BEFORE?If you did,tell me how you felt.Pissed?Agitated?Annoyed?Angry?Hurt?Depressed?If you felt any of those, then why do the same thing to us and make us feel the same way like you felt when you know it can kills somebodies soul.It's logic dad! You always asked us to reflect on what we've done wrong,then can you reflect on what you've done wrong?Is scolding a way? We scold you,we are rude. You scold us, then what is it?Teaching? If teaching meant scolding to you, i would rather find a pastor as my dad & a mute woman to be my mother. Yes,i may be crude for saying all these but this are my freakin thoughts and facts.I'm only being factual and if you wanna beat me because of it..then i have nothing to say anymore since violence is a way for you to solve things.But before everything, i just wanna tell you, just kill me because it can solve EVERYTHING. I don't have to be stress about you knowing i'm a freaking bisexual. anyway,WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT IT? It's freaking 20th century not the 18th. If i had money, i would've mirgrate to other country and marry a butch. If you can't accept me for who i am, then what for? I don't need your jeering and scoldings. I told you, if you think being with a girl is wrong, then YOU ARE WRONG. Because i'm gonna be freaking richer than those rich bastards out there and living better live than i can imagine. So just wait and see. Force me no more or i'll die.I swear.
Can I have yr hp no?
Not if you tell me who you are.(:
How would you describe your personality?
I'm cheerful and straightforward,i'm pretty stubborn too.I'm open minded towards friends whom i trust and I'm crude if i'm pissed.So yeh,that's about it.
What do you think was the greatest invention in your lifetime?
I don't think i've invent something great before.I only came up with great ideas,that's all.
What's your favorite movie quote?
"If it's yours it's yours,if it isn't then don't bother waiting."
Would you rather be really hot or really cold?
I would rather be really cold because I got my boyfriend with me whom will give me warmth.
Do you consider yourself a good dancer?
I don't consider myself to be a good dancer because first of all, I'm really skinny and I don't learn dance. Second of all, I really suck at memorising dance steps. And last but not l'm not really intesrested in dancing(maybe i would if i'm in mood.).
What's the longest you've ever gone without a bath or shower?
Just a day.That's the maximum day i can go without a bath or shower.
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I have loads to rant about.And now finally,I got the time to do it.
Yesterday I brokedown,it's not a major one though.Reason?My dad and mom tagged team to shout at me because they assume i didn't inform them I'm staying over which i did.So..he's being freaking unreasonable and disrespectful towards me and my friends.
First of all, when my phone died on me or engaged it'll be diverted to baby's phone.And my dad said it's all craps because he don't believe it.Well,what can i say for that?He could ask anybody who's studying what is diverted calls.Secondly,Joy's house don't have a house phone!And he claimed that i lied to him!I mean come'on!If i were to lie,would i be stupid enough to actually say that she doesn't have a house phone!?Believe it or not,it's up to you seriously.And so..my dad gone bonkers and said he would smash me tomorrow at my workplace.Truthfully,I would never call back if joce cuzzie & baby didn't persuade me to.
The most hurting words he said was this..
Me: Didn't you realise that whenever you guys call,it would only be scolding and yelling and naggings?
Father:*quiet*
Me:Think about it please.
Father:Why must i think?
Me: YOU ALWAYS ASK US TO THINK ABOUT WHAT WE'VE DONE,SO NOW I MERELY ASKING YOU TO THINK ABOUT THIS MATTER AND YOU TOLD ME WHY MUST YOU THINK!?
I mean,which parents would sacarstic with your own children?Yeh,obviously.Mine.
Now, I just wanna load all this shit into this blog so that it'll lessen my stress.
You always tell us to reflect on what we've done,what we've done wrong and everything..And now,I'm merely asking you to think about how many times have you called me just to scream at me.I am a human too dad,I am your daughter but I aint your scolding bag.You always shout at the top of your lungs when you're in a foul mood when you reached home.You can even shout when you saw towels laying unattended.We may have forgotten to keep it,but you don't have to yell at us.Do you think we wanna put it there on purpose to let you scream at us?NO.We're just being forgetful.And please stop saying that we're lousy because we can't remember.EVERYONE MAKE MISTAKES,so why aint there a second chance?Another thing,you told us to respect people.frankly,sooner or later i can't even respect my own relative because none of you are being fair.You guys always think that we're all in the wrong,you guys are right because you guys have much more experience.YEH,EXPERIENCE?I've been molested before,I've been flashed before,I've been drunk before,I've smoke before,I've been cheated before,I've been through lots more.so isn't that experience?HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN MOLESTED BEFORE?HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN TREATED LIKE HOW YOU GUYS TREATED US BEFORE?If you did,tell me how you felt.Pissed?Agitated?Annoyed?Angry?Hurt?Depressed?If you felt any of those, then why do the same thing to us and make us feel the same way like you felt when you know it can kills somebodies soul.It's logic dad! You always asked us to reflect on what we've done wrong,then can you reflect on what you've done wrong?Is scolding a way? We scold you,we are rude. You scold us, then what is it?Teaching? If teaching meant scolding to you, i would rather find a pastor as my dad & a mute woman to be my mother. Yes,i may be crude for saying all these but this are my freakin thoughts and facts.I'm only being factual and if you wanna beat me because of it..then i have nothing to say anymore since violence is a way for you to solve things.But before everything, i just wanna tell you, just kill me because it can solve EVERYTHING. I don't have to be stress about you knowing i'm a freaking bisexual. anyway,WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT IT? It's freaking 20th century not the 18th. If i had money, i would've mirgrate to other country and marry a butch. If you can't accept me for who i am, then what for? I don't need your jeering and scoldings. I told you, if you think being with a girl is wrong, then YOU ARE WRONG. Because i'm gonna be freaking richer than those rich bastards out there and living better live than i can imagine. So just wait and see. Force me no more or i'll die.I swear.
Can I have yr hp no?
Not if you tell me who you are.(:
How would you describe your personality?
I'm cheerful and straightforward,i'm pretty stubborn too.I'm open minded towards friends whom i trust and I'm crude if i'm pissed.So yeh,that's about it.
What do you think was the greatest invention in your lifetime?
I don't think i've invent something great before.I only came up with great ideas,that's all.
What's your favorite movie quote?
"If it's yours it's yours,if it isn't then don't bother waiting."
Would you rather be really hot or really cold?
I would rather be really cold because I got my boyfriend with me whom will give me warmth.
Do you consider yourself a good dancer?
I don't consider myself to be a good dancer because first of all, I'm really skinny and I don't learn dance. Second of all, I really suck at memorising dance steps. And last but not l'm not really intesrested in dancing(maybe i would if i'm in mood.).
What's the longest you've ever gone without a bath or shower?
Just a day.That's the maximum day i can go without a bath or shower.
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