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/ Tuesday, January 12, 2010
@12:13 PM /
 Breathe in and out,in and out.. Sometimes,i just couldn't take things in strike.It seems like everyone is turning their back against me.In school,i didn't talk.Seems like almost everyone noticed it.Friends walked pass me and took a glance at me,I refuse to return eye contact.(i don't know why either) They asked me question,i replied,with a one word answer. My dad 'confronted' me today.I knew he was venting his anger on me,although some of his sentence were true.He wanted to hit me,with a broomstick.Even though i'm afraid of his screaming and hurtful words,i'm not afraid of his beatings.should i say i'm brave or crazy?oh,whatever it is..I think everything's gonna be back to normal now.Everything includes,hearing his naggings everyday,asking me to do this & that.What can i expect when i'm such a pauper.Only if i'm born out with a silver spoon in my mouth. *ya,keep blabbling about this crap justina.Suck this post* Sometimes,i just wanna let go off everything. It's my sensitivity,insecurity & even over-reacting perhaps. I've been so over-reactive this few days & i don't know why, Is it because i love you more & more or maybe it's just me. Someday,i just hope you'll know how i really feel. Not by just asking me,but realizing it yourself. Why am i acting like a fcukin emo tryin to seek bloody attention? Why am i always being so sensitive? Why am i always so full of myself? Why am i always thinking people owe me favours? Why am i always thinking i should be the apple of your eye? Why am i always thinking i'm the prettiest girl you've ever seen/had? Why am i always forcing you to do things,WHICH IS SO ISN'T LIKE ME? Why am i always thinking about stuff like this! It irks me,it disgust me. What's happening to me?!my life!?my character!? I feel like i'm being obnoxious. I feel like crap. I feel like cryin because i just feel like it. I feel like slappin myself and say "get back into reality biatch.". I feel like i fell into a deep hole this time round. I feel like i'm fcukin ugly. I feel like slappin biatches. I feel like hatin somebody. I feel like havin no relationship/friendship or kinship in this world. I feel like askin god to stop every moment now and let me enjoy time alone. I'm getting adsurb.fuckin hell.
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